Alexander Lyrics by Rex Orange County
I’ve had back pain for most of my life
And the most I ever did was see the duck
And the duck told me my back was alright
He had initials in his shirt, he had a nice expensive watch
I thought he knew what he was doing or at least what was right
He made me fill a piece of paper out about
My health, well-being and the state of my life
I’ll tell the truth, I’m only lying to myself if I should lie
So, I answered everything and did my best to keep it real in between the lines
I gave it back to him, he took it his time and read the paper over once or twice
He looked at me as if to say I need to tell you something
And don’t prepare to tell me something nice
He wanted to know how much I tend to drink and smoke
I told him how it was and then he gave me this advice
He said, “Ease up on stress, you don’t help yourself much”
It’s too intense for you to take, you’ll only tense up
And you see you have these issues
And you struggle to relax
So you come see me the doctor to get something for your back
But this piece of paper tells me more you should address
“I see some anger in you, plus addiction, plus the rest”
“I feel like we should speak about this before it comes first”
“And I know a lot of people who can help for what it’s worth”
I said, “I don’t know if you don’t understand man my back just fucking hurts”
Do I need physiotherapy or is it something worse?
He paused an then he asked me “Well, I thought we should do”
“If I knew that then you wouldn’t be here man I’m asking you”
He handed me to someone who gave me a blood test
Who handed me to someone else who took my payment
And took all of my fucking patience
I should at this point the doctor left
And I resented that man, I never went back to him again
Well you know in a weird way I feel like maybe he was right
I may be using my back pain to distract from the pain of life
Feel it all externally, when really it’s just inside
Procrastinating, confrontation, every single time
So thank you Mr. Doctor man for being sincere
I guess I just didn’t wanna hear what I wanna hear, okay