feeling not found

Feeling Not Found

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I got with the program, I did what they told me
I tried medication, I bought what they sold me
I tried feeling better, I started indulging
In a little nostalgia, I felt like the old me
But all this time I wanted to feel new
It’s like I’m stuck in a loop

And that’s where they get you, you question yourself now
You try to refurbish but you’ll never learn how

Until you realize the lines of code in you
Never go out of date when they’re what defines what’s you
And it’s okay to think that you want these things to stay
Just scream at the top of your lungs when you say

And I may not feel found, but I’m not as lost as I used to be
And it may not be right, but it’s not as wrong as it usually seems
I can be as here and as real as I want if I want and you’ll never take that away
This out of date software’s here to stay

So when the cycle is over, and all the circuits are broken
You won’t be fighting resistance in spite of existence
There’s nothing to fix inside your brain

And someday you’ll realize you always felt this way
So scream at the top of your lungs when you say

And I may not feel found, but I’m not as lost as I used to be
And it may not be right, but it’s not as wrong as it usually seems
I can be as here and as real as I want if I want and you’ll never take that away
No matter how much the world wants me to change