i apologize

I Apologize

Dee-1

& Fredo Bang

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This for the sons with no father figures in their life
This for the baby mothers who never gon be a wife
This for the daughters who lost their innocence to the streets
This for the brothers in them trenches where it ain’t no peace
I forgot to call and check on you like I was ‘posed to
I forgot to help you take some weight off your shoulders
I forgot to give you love when that’s what you lacked
I forgot to pray for you when the Devil attacked
I really wish that I could take away all of your stressing
I really wish that I could turn your pain into blessings
I really wish I could deliver you from all the drama
I really wish that I could heal you, from all your trauma
I’m finding balance, tryna learn how to love better
Tryna make life for the ex-cons and thugs better
We underdogs and outcasts, we love pressure
This deeper than a rap song, this a love letter

I apologize for the way the world made me
I turned my back on your attention, should’ve gave it to my baby
Seen a lot wrong and blamed it on the devil
Pain the only thing the streets ever gave me
I seen ’em put that dirt on top of you with shovels
Lord knows I had the chance, you’d be right with me

I got a heart full of tears, I just ain’t cried yet
My uncle told me that we’re dead, we just ain’t died yet
We in a spiritual war; mentally I’m gettin tired
Playing chess against myself, trying not to root for either side
It’s depressing when I’m passing thru my block
I done took so many losses, I lost my way to the top
The streets had me in a dark place that was sunken
Too young to realize, I was functioning in dysfunction
Everybody was thuggin; Angry, Violent, and Broke
Been sleepin on me forever, steady claiming they’re woke
It was rare that I spoke, constantly losing hope
Laughing to keep from crying so it was often we joked
Let’s go. Cuz time after time I done been denied
But I ain’t got nothin to lose, so I ain’t got no pride
Grew up way too fast, everything was exposed to us
We gon just keep showing up until this world notice us

I apologize for the way the world made me
I turned my back on your attention, should’ve gave it to my baby
Seen a lot wrong and blamed it on the devil
Pain the only thing the streets ever gave me
I seen ’em put that dirt on top of you with shovels
Lord knows I had the chance, you’d be right with me