I drove the sword that bled me dry
Behind closed doors, I cried on the couch
I wanted to be big, so big
So very big, a giant
I dried my eyes, step out for the photos
In borrowed Gucci and sunglasses on
I wanted to be big, so big
So very big, a giant
The years that I have bet on
And I still feel like I haven’t won
I’ve searched for a “feat.” with all the greatest
They say I’m not that important
I wish I were big, so big
So very big, a giant
It’s never enough, not even for first place
And though I know it, I still believe I’m in the damn game
What does it feel like to be big, a giant?
The years that I have wasted
And many I have disappointed
(Mmm-mmm)
(Mmm-mmm-mmm)
The dream I have squandered
I hope I have forgiven myself
I hope I have forgiven myself
I hope I have set myself free
The dream I have squandered
I hope I have forgiven myself