初夏 – Shoka English Translation Lyrics by Ado
Clinging to “I want to die, I want to die” doesn’t mean anything at all.
I don’t know that everything with form will come to an end.
At rock bottom, in drunkenness, with raw and reckless lyrics,
There are lives that can’t be saved.
Are you trying to be redeemed by hurting others, hurting yourself?
“Will I find happiness?” You laugh.
Once again, I’m intoxicated by the early summer breeze,
Singing out my inflated ego.
I don’t know the right answer, so please,
Tell me.
Tell me!
The words I loved were broken.
I believed someday I would be rewarded,
But the voice I built up is the wrong answer in this world.
“I hate that clueless face of yours.”
Tens, hundreds, thousands of times,
I want to die.
I was, I was, I was a fool in this puddle-filled miniature garden.
To cover my wounds, I keep repeating my own self-deception,
That tired profile.
Even if I line up words more beautiful than a dream before dawn,
Like the fireworks in the city, beautifully withering,
I am not there, just an aftermath.
The words I couldn’t say overflow and won’t stop.
Even if my wish comes true, nothing will change.
The promise we made someday is now forgotten,
And I can’t hold on, I’m here alone.
Thousands, millions, billions of times,
Won’t you just kill me?
If ethics create reason,
Is this hoarse voice of mine justice?
If righteousness always becomes kindness,
Tell me,
Tell me,
Answer me!
The person I loved no longer saves me.
I believed someday I would be rewarded.
But the future I once imagined has long become the past,
“I don’t know anything,” so I sing here.
Tens, hundreds, thousands of times,
I breathe,
Thousands, millions, billions of times,
I’ve screamed.